FebulousFebruary 2025: Lost and Found

Lost and found

Spending over the last 40 years+ trying to fit into various relationships at work and in my personal life I think I have finally found a ‘better’ me.  

Not necessarily ‘better’ to others maybe, but someone who has found out that she needs to choose herself and her needs first.  

I was lost and like the ‘poor relative’, surrounded by narcissistic (even toxic) people.  

In more recent times, I have opted to withdraw. 

I was lost; 

lost in a desire to please and rescue; 

a true co-dependant; 

saying yes to all and sundry, and always doing what I could to ‘impress’.  

I have now found a better me.  

I know I am worth all the effort I pour into myself.  

I know I still care, still want to please, but only if it suits.   

Who cares what people truly think of me? 

If I love you then I love you with my whole heart but that heart is now ruled a bit better by my head.

Anne Lamb, Kent